Time wasted

The time that I’ve wasted is my biggest regret. Spent in these places, I will never forget. Just sitting and thinking, about the things that I’ve done. The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun.
Now it’s just me, and my hard driven guilt. Behind a wall of emptiness, I allowed to be built. I am trapped in my body, just wanting to run. Back to my youth, with its laughter and fun.
But the Chase is over, and there’s no place to hide. Everything is gone, including my pride. With reality suddenly right in my face, I’m scared, alone, and stuck in this place.
Now memories of the past, flashed through my head. And the pain is obvious, by the tears that I shed. I ask myself why, and where I went wrong. I guess I was weak, when I should have been strong.
living for the things, and the wings I had grown. My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown. As I look at my past, it’s so easy to see. The fear that I had, afraid to be me.
I pretended to be rugged, so fast and so cool. When actually lost, like a blinded old fool. I’m getting too old, for this tiresome game. Of acting real hard, with no sense of shame. It’s time that I change, and get on with my life. Fulfilling my dreams, for a family and wife.
What my future will hold, I really don’t know. But the years that I’ve wasted, are starting to show. I just live for the day, when I’ll get a new start. And the dream I still, hold deep in my heart. I hope I can make it, I at least have to try. Because I’m heading towards death, and I don’t want to die…

My prison…
Author :Unknown to me

Just remember, when you think all is lost, the future remains.”
– Dr. Robert H. Goddard